i have a new journal. if you check your friends list you'll probably see that i've already added you. if i didn't it's just because we don't talk anymore so what's the point, ya know? online friendships can be great if they're maintained, but most of mine weren't. that's nobody's "fault", that's just how it goes. ::shrug::

anyway, i think i'll be using LJ a lot more than i have been in the last few years because i'm working through some stuff and i value the opinions of those i care about. so, if you care to read it, head on over there and maybe add me back. right now almost everything is open to the public but i'll probably switch that soon.

xo,
lainbrain

hey nerds. how's it going?

oh, friends- you are so clever.

virb.com/complainey
complainey.vox.com

i'm just sayin'. thems better than this. :)

lovelovelove

i pretty much still only post to my myspace blog. i dunno. it's just easier cos i go there daily cos ppl don't call you anymore they just myspace you. ::sigh::

i was feeling really guilty/ashamed yesterday and the four days prior. now i feel much better after talking to my friend luke. he put some stuff in perspective for me.

i hate my job. looking for a better one. i still love beards tho. so all hope isn't lost.


and jesus wept.

had to call the cops on a customer threatening to hit me. cops did nothing. yesterday was shit.

here is something funny to watch
do you spell babies with a z?

i didn't have to work today. i had breakfast with a bunch of lovelies at wolfgang's (24 thumbs up!) then i went to see alpha dog with courtney, chris, nate (courtney's brother) and my co-pilot (i unfired him.) that movie was very sad. i'm the only one with enough soul to cry tho. you know what was really funny? these parents brought their 13 yr old son to see it. they let him watch almost the whole thing but then there was an almost sex scene so they made him leave. yeah, you can watch a kid get shot with a machine gun and lay in a grave but we draw the line at a woman going under a sheet and pretending to blow a guy. that's just wrong!

so, i think karaoke tonight at cheers? i'm definitely singing some bobby brown. don't miss out. be there or be somewhere else that isn't cool!

oh yeah, the spa party was really fun. thanks to those of you that actual showed up. the rest of you that missed it...you owe me a present. gift cards are good but cash is preferred.

my favorite lyrics of the moment:

"word up, mommy. i love you!"-all that i got is you, ghostface killah

i'm pretty much sick of winter. it's been snowing a lot the last few days. hey, guess what...i don't like cold weather. in fact, i hate it. i wish it was spring or fall all year. i don't like summer either. too hot. if it could be 72 degrees everyday and rain every five or six days for a few hours so i could play in it, i'd be happy.

my pita bread consumption has tripled lately. here is how i figured that out.

normal pita bread consumption: 0
meals that involved pita bread in the last week: 3

the math speaks for itself. as travis so wisely puts it, math is math. can't argue with that.

tonight is my spa party. i can't wait til that's done with. just so you all know, i don't plan on going to great lengths to make my house "clean". i mean, i'll vacuum and put the dirty dishes in the dishwasher and pick up the random junk on my floor. but you're gonna have to deal with the fact that there is no rhyme or reason to where i keep things in my house.

right now i am content.
p.s. i put a really good hayden song on my profile. you should check it out. it'll make you feel like it's summer.

i'm back. maybe. sorta. i dunno. do you even care?

"i don't need no hairbrush-packing woman around to be happy."

well said. well said.

i pretty much only update my myspace blog now. just so you know.

going cold turkey isn't as delicious as it sounds. quitting smoking is interesting. no wait, the other thing: tedious.

i visited dave in rehab today. it was inspiring to see him so amped on getting his life together. it makes me so happy to see my friends happy. i felt...elated.

i guess we're not camping at sleeping bear dunes now. silver lake or some shit. whatever, nicca. i don't care. i'm just looking forward to getting the FUCK out of grand rapids. seriously.


"no point in steering now."

also, i love this. thanks, lalalaini.

ARE YOU PERHAPS, POSSIBLY TRIFFLIN'??

to those of you i was GOOGLE TALKIN' with this morning...sorry. i totes closed it without meaning to. then i was too lazy to log back in. I'M A GEMINI. IT'S MY NATURE. YOU CAN'T BLAME ME.

also, i'm wearing a hat.


EDIT:

GordonWithers: lolol what kind of hat
LaineyLouWho: it's this hat my dad has it says "i hit two good balls this morning...i stepped on a rake."
LaineyLouWho: i'll edit the entry to reflect this.
GordonWithers: LOL
GordonWithers: that is fucking awesome

this is lexi. i call her "lexicon devil". this is an older pic of her. but anyway, her favorite song is "sweet home alabama".

lexi: sweet home amabamaaaaaaaaa. where guys always blue.

i haven't really felt like "blogging" lately. stuff is happening but i just don't really feel like talking about it. mostly because i feel like i'll jinx it. i dunno.

i can't wait to go camping. i just really need to get away. i've been so busy these last few weeks. i took preston to his dad's friday nite (LONG HORRIBLE STORY FOLLOWS THAT BUT I'M NOT GONNA POST ABOUT IT.) i'm just gonna take this week to catch up with some close friends that i never seem to have time for anymore, read, get some stuff taken care of, clean, maybe some shopping.

i feel like i could sleep forever. i think i'm gonna go read for a while and listen to janis joplin.

preston loves to fish. i took him to his dad's last nite so i'm sure he'll be doing more fishing this week. maybe he'll catch you a delicious bass.

god, this commercial just keeps playing over and over in my head.

it's, basically, genius.

i'm gonna go see the breakup alone now. i've never seen a movie alone. wish me luck.

that subject line really doesn't have anything to do with this post. i just like it. it's the most precious line from true romance. if you haven't seen it, for chrissakes don't tell anyone. just go buy it and do yourself a favor.

today at work these two customers came in at the last minute. they're very kind/sweet people so i didn't mind waiting for the guy to go get his checkbook and come back. the woman stayed "to keep me company". truth be told, i had a lot of work to catch up on. i did that as she talked to me tho. she said, "so, how did your birthday go?" (she remembered? wow.) i told her it was quite lovely and what a wonderful bunch of friends i have. i told her about my surprise party and how i'm going out tonight with my friends from kalamazoo. she says, "oh, does your boyfriend live there?" i said, "oh no, i don't have a boyfriend." she said, "what? a pretty thing like you? that's crazy. you gotta get a sweetie. my sweetie is so sweet." after she said that i felt my heart jump. i hope someday to have the audacity to sound like a fool when describing the love of my life. i want to be an idiot in love. it seems wonderful. i don't think i've ever met someone that was just so stupidly happy. and in her defense, her sweetie...really is a sweetie. he opens the door for her, calls her "darling", etc al.

there are possibilities in sight. one seems almost too perfect. so perfect, in fact, that it'll probably end up being ridiculously awful. my life is like a sitcom. a cruel sitcom where the main character meets a guy who is seemingly wonderful and perfect for her; and then WHOOPS HE'S CRAZY! ::insert laugh track here:: what a wicked game to play.

ok, i'm gonna get going to kalamazooooooo now. i will then make haste to the nearest olive garden and drink copious amounts of sangria...cos hey, i ain't payin' and i ain't drivin'. CAN'T STOP! WON'T STOP! (courtney, that's for you. <3)